Janet and Alf's wedding day
I felt depressed. I couldn't figure why. I survived my second covid vaccine. I had food, clothing, shelter. It was even sunny out. I asked God to reveal to me why I was wallowing. I thought maybe it was because I had read all of Tracie Peterson's books and that Roseanna White's new one would not be out until May. Then I remembered-- my cousin Janet passed away 3 years ago on April 2. Her husband, Alf, passed away one year ago on April 2. I was mourning -- that's all.
The first time this strange depression set in was when my sister, Evy, passed away in January 1997. For the next 5 Januarys I would become very sad for no reason. Then I would remember that Evy had passed away in January.
Evy's headstone
To cheer myself up I would go into the local drug stores or department stores and try on all the sample perfumes. I would check out all the Mary Engelbright greeting cards wherever I could find them-- in toy shops, Hallmark stores, and stationary sections of various stores. I would watch a bunch of movies. One time I went to Elizabeth and Alexander's Tea Room (no longer exists) at The Country Village in Bothell, and ordered a huge breakfast. I also would listen to my favorite music.
How do you cheer yourself up if you have a time of sadness?
Proverbs 17: 22 A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.
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